Feel Afraid After Seeing Sex Workers 3 Years Ago

Hello,

I [M24] got my first job 3 years ago when I was 21 and I spent my money on seeing workers. I have lost my virginity to workers at those Chinese massage places, and then I met workers for meet ups in other places like hotels and apartments.

Just back story, I grew up in a religious family where I wasn’t allowed to socialize much outside of school. Which in turn made people think I’m weird, and nobody wanted to be my friend. In college, I just understood I wasn’t deserving of friends or relationship. So I never got into a relationship, or anything. After college I felt I would fix all my problems of being awkward, lonely by not being a virgin. So I went to a massage parlor to lose my v card. I regret it.

I would always send money via Zelle, or swipe my card.

I now have had that wave of reality hit me, and I am regretting my decisions of doing such things. I am worried if 10 years down the road my kids will see this, or my wife if I find someone.

I searched my number up on this Mr Number app, and I saw it. I feel horrible. They had ratings about me wasting their time (I cancelled on them one time, because something came up urgently and there was a religious holiday my friends wanted me somewhere and I couldn’t come)

What if I am applying for a loan for a house and I cannot be approved because of this stuff I did. Or even worse if the police order me to show up, because there are recorded transactions of me sending to escorts.

I am very scared, anxious, nervous, and afraid. I am also very regretful. Can someone please advise how bad my situation is? I come from a religious decent family. I feel I let my parents down and my community as well.

Should I be worried about the law coming for me? I changed my number but can interviewers see my old number has called escorts even though I don’t give it?